Poem Arizona

Clouds as big as moutains
Stroll through the sky
Snow-covered sacred mountain
The spirits leave imprints of their faces there
In giant granite boulders people make their homes
On top of the mountains I see where the rainbows end

Poem the Haiku

emptiness from being alone
void of love I go through life
with no one to love


black cat in the toilet
rolling and playing in dirty sandbox
trying to catch her tail

Poem

I gaze into the mirror
And in my right pupil I see the future and in my left the past
In ther third eye in my forehead I see the string that connects us all together
Within the great universal coil of the rainbow serpent that ties us all together ithin her eyes I see life life is a river flowing through the desert and I amm just an otter wanting to play upon it

Rock talk to me

to day i want to my sanctuary the Yaren story where i hang out a a woman come in with a bunch of bracelets all stone i can hold a stone in my hand and they tell me there preps i thank a lot of people can do this all thay need to do is lesion and i finish a skirt i was working on

ME and the Computer

I don't understand I'm on the computer almost all day mostly ust looking at videos but there is so much about it I don't know how to do like people have ben asking me to cut and paste and I don't know how to do it and I really want to upload I want to upload my dog Clover so everyone can see how cute she is and then I would get myself into trouble because I like to comment on stuff and sometimes I get some weird shit back I mean I don't mind the funny, weird, or nice shit back but e the mean why bother putting that out and the nastiest ones are the ones that beg you for comment they don't seem to understand i'm not a computer expert I'm just playing on this thing oh by and by if anyone reads this I don't mind comments but if it is nasty don't say anything

Other reason why I can't handle it today is I've been passing gallstones I've been doing it manually meaning no surgery because I have a small fortune in stomach tatoos and I don't want scaring to mess them all up this involves drinking epsom salts to open up your liver ducts, than after a while dringking olive oil and grapefruit juice, and ticture of black walnut mixed together then lay down immediately try to sleep for 8 hours then drink more epsom salts here is where it gets a little gross but noone is reading this so I am going to say it anyway I took a long spoon sifted through a lot of small stones and sand and on the spoon I sifted out one larger then a fireball I flushed it threw away the spoon and hope this doesn't mess up the septic tank.

P.M.S. superpowers

I figured out why I wantedto hit people with the frying pan it was that evil bastard that comes to visit once a month and sends me into a world of pain but is better than the alternative well when the male old person that lives with me came into my computer abode and he startid farting i considered this he was trying to mark his territory but I yold him that if he didn;t get out I was going to mark my share with blood the female old person that lives with me knows to give me advil and chocoolate and to stay the fuck out of my wy It is always the stupid ales that don't fucking get it I think men have it easy they don't have to go through this w every month goodbye cramping now need chocolate and advil

frying Pan and a list

I'am have one of those day where I just want to hit people with a frying pan and i 'am making a list of peopl

See I was watching the Boondocks one prt is my favorite Its when Huey and Riley are fighting and it starts off with Kitana and a chair Kitana one pull the gun and somehow the gun gets lost and he whips out a frying pan from his pants I've always wanted to hit someone with a heavy frying pan I thin there is something insanely funny about it but I never have because I don't want to go to jail I don't want to be on the receiving end I want to be the hitter not the hitee so on bad days I make a list of names of people who have it coming and I pull out that 50 yr old frying pan but I don't really want to hurt people and i don't want to go to jail

ultimate punishment for kitty

MY little black kitty likes to sneak out This cat wil l let herself out she knows how to open both front and back doors we keep her inside because of coyotes owls and cars Today is a rare day in Arizona it is really raining and slightly cold So when she went and did her nornal trick of jumping over the dogs to get out she got a very wet surprise So she went out got wet feet and ran back inside.

Why is it that whenever I type this my dogs eat catshit and come up and try to kiss me?

I figured out why I'amnormal here

When I lived in Maryland for 29 years everyone told me how weird I was. But when I moved to Arizona in the Jerome, Sedona, Cottonwood area with my aging parents I was shocked because people told me how normal I was even though I have a therapist who comes to my house erery other week and have other issues and am SMI so my mother informed me that in a town of 10,000 people a third of them are smi and that is only those who go to the clinic to be counted. Its not that I have changed its that I have found my peers. But after 29 yrs of having people telling you how fucked up you are I find that when people tell me I'm normal I don't believe them I still come with a warning label like before I meet new people their friends tell them what to wxpect before they meet me things like do you offend easily, she cusses a lot, her purse is a stuffed animal, she always has a large bottle of water and knitting whereever she goes she sees and hears things that others don't but some say that is just because I'm psychic but despite this warining label I'm still considered normal makes you think don't it?

Waldorf and Statler Banned

I have to talk about this because this really bothers me. I was searching UT


ube for videos of Waldorf and Statler you know the two old guys from hthe Muppet show who heckle everybody I really enjoy them they are two of my favorites and I came across a video called Waldorf and Statler Sugar Fight I clicked on it and got the thing saying this video has been banned due to violence and then when I clicked on the persons account to see if they had more videos and then the red thing flashed up saying the account had been banned due to user violation just for the Muppets. Now during this time I went to Flagstaff to see Pan's Labyrinth an awesome movie I received 47 messages from Michief Meister my Yaoi provider and 24 of those were just posted that UTube won't let me erase all this for fear of having videos flagged I understand why porn could be flagged I understand why violence can be flagged but the Muppets I do not understand why they are flagged I love the Muppets I think its a sad world when the Muppets are banned I was so upset by this I commented about the Muppets on the Yaoi site Muppets and porn generally don't go hand in hand so I hope I don't get hate mail but what can I say I have a split personality I hope I don't get banned I have been banned in places like AA I just hop e I don't get banned from computer sites

Door to door salesman

One of those little bastards came to my house today This little prick was all "I'm practicing public speaking" This is a project He looked like he was a baby so I asked if this was some kind of school project? No I;m out of school between high school and college So i asked are you casing my house? He said no are you scared of me? AT his point I turned and looked at him andd I said THERE IS A BIRD ON MY SHIRT, A PACK OF DOGS AT MY COMMAND, AND A COW SKELETON IN THE FRONT YARD I THINK YOU HAVE MORE REASON TO BE AFRAID THAN I DO thats when he pulled out this thing saying these are my sponsers and it was a whole bunch of magazines and crap and I said dude yoou are sellling magazines get the fuck out of here

Alone

I hate valentine 's Ihave been single for 6 years and I hate all the people who want to make me feel less then whole i hate all the comnercials i hate the shows and all the people who say look i have partner don't you whish you had one and yes i do but not yours and remember folks love is the slowist form of suicide

Outing

The good thing and the bad thig about living out in the boonies. It takes an hour to drive to the small town and 2 hour to drive to the big town. This is normally a good thing for me seeing as I am kind of a hermit, but yesterday we drove 2 hrs and l5 min to make it to the Arizona Rennaissance Festival. I will say it was worth the drive. especially since my mother who went with me drove it. I don't know if she had a good time or not but I think she did. I had a great time , but before I went I was scared about leaving my territory. Which is weird because before I moved to the boonies I lived in a big city and I wasn't scared to go oout among all the people. But after living in the boonies for a while I get scared around people weird isn't it?

Nightmare

Ok so I had last night and i am going to tell anyone how see this about it so I was on a beach, a cold beach with penguins and a buffet there is a woman, a man, and a child I think the child wasme no wait a minute they were all me. First I was a man and I got stabbed and someone stole my kidney, but the man disappeared and all of a sudden I was the child holding the kidney the woman hands me an ice-cream dissh with ice in it and we put my kidney on top of that and she tells the boy-child which is me " we need to get you to the hospital so we can put the kidney back in" as long as it is still cold we are still safe just don"t let it unthaw" then there are men in black coats chasing me a man comes picks me up stabs me through the other kidney and I die that's when I woke up
I think I was a little stressed out my mom's sister came to visit her my mother's sister never liked me so I didn't hang out with them I the only thing that rreally got me about the visit is when she was in our house we had to put all the dogs outside because they were barking, and I took my pet parrot peanut out of her cage so she wouldn't scream she feels safer when she is by my side seeing a new person peanut decides to be friendly and starts bowing her head in greeting saying hi and waving her talon peanut is totally ignored I knew peanut would start screaming if she didn't get any recognition so I told my aunt to say hi to my bird which made peanut happy me mad because she was rude to my bird

Minions

Iask the question is it better to have minions or to be a minion? My ego says it is better to have minions loyal followers that will do whatever you want but it also be fun to be a minion I meanyou can get together with your fellows make a pinata of the person you follow and you and your buddies can beat it with a stick until candy and goodies come out doesn't that sound like fun? especially for someone like me who sits alone in a dark room with only her 6 dogs to comfory her.

Ican't think straight

My ride did not show up to take me to the toy party but gave me directions instead so I went anyway. It was really quite amusing 9 liquored up women with adult toys and dirty jokes $200 later I went home and there is always that one person there who is buying stuff for "other people" and taking notes who looks at you calling you a pervert for telling them what is good and what is not and they are the ones buying the ass dildo for their grandma.
The problem today is my father who lives with me is dying to talk aboout religion and politics I've known him for 30 yrs I don't want to talk about religion and politics even though we are both liberals I still don't want to hear it so I do what I always doto stop these conversations is say but what can I do aboout it I already vote so that generallly stops them

Adult Toy Party

I'am one of those people who sit alnoe in a dark room with T.V or computer and pet's to comfort me .But somewher along the line of my life i got invited to a toy party and darn if not scared to go if i go i might make firend and the part of me that want to go but the other part want to stay home and watch T.V or youtube so part 1 has made it so i have a driver so if she come and get me i have on way of get out of it but they pick me up

Surprise

I'am one of those people who always wanted a stalker especially a cut one 'I think it could be fun i mean you could try to stalk the stalker you could jump out from behind the bushes he hinding in and yell surprise and scry the shit out of him
and whenevr i say i want a stalker there alway thatone person who says no you don't and then smugly tell about their experience and it horrible but you sent they'rekinda proud of it

Hello

Did you ever have one of those day when you think you'er losing you'er mind jand you think that if you lost it all the way everything would be better


For those of you that know insanity is not a sweet oblivion yes Ito have been there Iknow the good and the bad of it and there are many formof it

hello

Did you ever have one of those day's when you think you'er losing your mind and you think to you'er self if only lose it all the way and the sweet oblivion you'd be in

For those of you who know losing you'er can take many different forms